Horses of Paradox 

Poem in YouTube link, lyrics below.
After several conversations with different women about the contradiction of feeling  both not enough and too much at once, I  wrote a poem on the subject. The lyrics are also inspired by Stacy Eldridge’s quote in her book “Captivating.” 

 “Every woman I’ve ever met feels it …I am not enough and I am too much at the same time. Not pretty enough, not thin enough, not kind enough, not gracious enough, not disciplined enough. But too emotional, too needy, too sensitive, too strong, too opinionated, too messy. The result is shame, the universal companion of women. It haunts us, nipping at our heels, feeding on our deepest fear that we will end up abandoned and alone.”

Horses of Paradox

Inside of her, there lived two horses.
Each one driven by opposing forces

The first is a foal, “not enough” is her label

She’s too insecure, to stomp hoof out of stable

The other, too much, a thorough bred quite unruly

Half broke, but powerful, her critics speak cruely

In circles they trot, through the night they canter

With a dosage of doubt, and some witty banter

The foal walks like bambi, feeble on ice

Her main objective, is just to be nice.

If “too much” galloped free, taking the helm 

Would the neigh sayers gasp, for sheer overwhelm?

She’s a vulnerable novice, that could trip, fall and bleed
Although, “too much” is actually a noble steed

That mare is beautiful, with a wild long maine

And more fire, and passion, than it knows to contain

The stem of the labels, are the same false belief
Perform for acceptance. It yields no relief

To jump over those hurdles, is her battle to fight.

But it’s worth it to find, that brilliant light.

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