Poem in YouTube link, lyrics below.
After several conversations with different women about the contradiction of feeling both not enough and too much at once, I wrote a poem on the subject. The lyrics are also inspired by Stacy Eldridge’s quote in her book “Captivating.”
“Every woman I’ve ever met feels it …I am not enough and I am too much at the same time. Not pretty enough, not thin enough, not kind enough, not gracious enough, not disciplined enough. But too emotional, too needy, too sensitive, too strong, too opinionated, too messy. The result is shame, the universal companion of women. It haunts us, nipping at our heels, feeding on our deepest fear that we will end up abandoned and alone.”
Horses of Paradox
Inside of her, there lived two horses.
Each one driven by opposing forces
The first is a foal, “not enough” is her label
She’s too insecure, to stomp hoof out of stable
The other, too much, a thorough bred quite unruly
Half broke, but powerful, her critics speak cruely
In circles they trot, through the night they canter
With a dosage of doubt, and some witty banter
The foal walks like bambi, feeble on ice
Her main objective, is just to be nice.
If “too much” galloped free, taking the helm
Would the neigh sayers gasp, for sheer overwhelm?
She’s a vulnerable novice, that could trip, fall and bleed
Although, “too much” is actually a noble steed
That mare is beautiful, with a wild long maine
And more fire, and passion, than it knows to contain
The stem of the labels, are the same false belief
Perform for acceptance. It yields no relief
To jump over those hurdles, is her battle to fight.
But it’s worth it to find, that brilliant light.